I was listening to NPR where a singer was getting interviewed. When asked where she got inspiration for her music, she said “people leave and dreams die.”
How starkly candid. It got me thinking. Sometimes you spend more time trying to just get on, despite it all. It might be something to actually slow down and look at the fallout. People sometimes, in fact, leave and not always in the most affable of ways. Dreams die, people disappoint you. Avoidance is my M.O. Alternatively, to look at and try to process it so it’s not dictating your life under the surface, might be a thing. <----wow that was honest. It’s not my failed marriage that I’m holding on to as much as the life. I loved that I was creating a life with someone and that we had a home and that we had each other.
I’m a romantic but I hide it really well. I’m so unnerved about exposing myself in my writing, that I might even make this blog anonymous.
I’ve swayed so far away from anything “romantic” that, at this point in my life I sexually identify as a golfer.
I will try to illustrate this next part without gushing, because I love Marc Maron so much I might not be able to pull it off. He was interviewing Springsteen. What is better than an informed, intelligent performer interviewing the Boss for fucks sake? At one point Bruce was talking about the fire we all have inside. He said, “. . . you get the burn, you aim it towards the right thing.”